My Struggle – Internally and Externally

Today, I breathe.

I am trying to have a calm and grounded week. Externally, I’m dealing with money issues involving my ex. My savings have completely dwindled because of it. I’m trying to expand myself, but lately it feels like I’m not going anywhere. It’s all very tiring.

This week I had to tell my kids we’re not buying anything extra or eating out. I usually try to be expansive and bold. I lean toward optimism. I think positive thoughts and move forward with a can-do attitude. But this week feels tight.

And saying “we can’t” is a hard swallow.

Especially when I’m used to saying “we can.”

When momentum slows, I start to question myself. Am I doing something wrong? Am I behind? Am I missing something?

But I’m learning that not every slow season means failure.

Life has its ebbs and flows. I know this. I’ve lived this. I’m learning to stay patient — not just when things are good, but all the time. To stay steady. To stay grounded. To remain in the middle instead of swinging with every high and low.

So today, I breathe.

And I trust that this, too, is part of the rhythm.